Most of this book was written by me on many dark nights when I was first diagnosed with SLE in 1988. Often times writing my feelings down on paper would ease my pain on long and painful nights. This was a way of releasing some of that pain. Some of my interpretations of my life are sad, but I have come a long way and I BELIEVE that I will have a joyful heart because of it, and not in spite of it. This is a book of appreciation to all my family and friends who have loved and supported me my whole life. Much love to all who have loved me. Deb